I had horrible pain at the beginning of the month and after going to the doctor we realised that there could be the possibility that I have endometriosis, which can cause infertility. So we scheduled an ultra sound for the 26th, to make sure the medicine wasn't causing cyst and that I didn't have stage 4 of endometriosis. This automatically made me think that I didn't ovulate this month and there is a possibility that I might not be able to conceive. So I put it in God hands and asked that He give me peace and to open my heart to other options. The other option for us was adoption. So I looked up a few local adoption agencies and read some of the stories. Adoption is a great option and I started to warm up to the idea that this is what we are going to have to do. I went in on Jan.19th to have blood drawn to see if I ovulated. So on Friday January 22nd, I called Rhonda, Dr. Barki's nurse to find out if I ovulated this month. I DID!! She said that my levels were really good. I was so excited to hear that the medicine was working and I ovulated. I wasn't excited because I had a chance of getting pregnant this month but because I knew the medicine was working and there was still hope for us to have kids of our own.
Friday night the 22nd we were to babysit 3 kids, two were our niece and nephew and the other one was a 16 month of a guy that I work with. David and his wife (the parents of the 16 month old) hadn't been on a date basically since they got married, so Corey and I thought it shouldn't be too hard to add another kid to the slumber party. Hank and Marie were to meet up with us at dinner so Hank could experience first hand the changing of a real child's diaper, not just the plastic one they give you in Birthing Class. Having them along would be a lot of help too.
I left work early so I could finish cleaning up before everyone arrived. On my way home I felt real nauseous, I'm thinking to myself it's just because you took two migraine pills on an empty stomach, your not pregnant. But just to make myself feel better I stopped in at a pharmacy and got a pregnancy test. As soon as I got home to took the test and one solid pink line appeared and a faint pink line also appeared. I immediately start to panic, knowing what that faint line meant. I gathered myself together and decided to ask Marie how faint her line was when she first took a pregnancy test. She said it was really faint. At this time I begin to panic more when Marie says "Amanda you're pregnant". After hanging up the phone denial started to take over. I wanted to be a mom and have children but the actually idea of that coming true was......unbelievable. SO with me being in denial I went on the rest of the evening acting normal and not saying anything to anyone. The next morning after the kids were gone I took another test before I got in the shower, same results, still in denial. Keep in mind that Corey still doesn't know anything because I wanted to be able to surprise him. Corey and I ran a few errands that day and I decided to tell him that I thought I was pregnant, but I don't think I am. He was confused by my comment and didn't understand my non positive statement. Once we got home he immediately looked up online what a faint line on a pregnancy test means. I know what it means but I'm still in the denial stage. Corey basically said your pregnant and I said no way.
We receive a phone call from Marie telling us her water broke and she is headed home to take a shower and then off to the hospital. After realising how Hank and Marie were about to deliver, my denial of being pregnant starts to lift a little and Corey offers to go get another pregnancy test. I told him to get one that says "yes" or "no", so he bought back a digital one. I did my thing and asked Corey if he wanted to tell me the results or if he wanted me to tell him. He said he wanted to do the honors, so I went in the living room and waited. Corey comes around the corner and says "now don't be upset, but we're pregnant", I say "are you serious?" and then start crying (tears of joy). Corey says this is the same reaction I gave him when he proposed to me. I have officially moved from denial to shock. WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!
